Why Nicole Kidman Is Reportedly Determined To Reconcile With The Kids She Shares With Ex Tom Cruise

Nicole Kidman is reportedly pushing for a reconciliation with her older children, Isabella and Connor.

The actress shares the du0 with her ex-husband Tom Cruise and has been estranged from them since her divorce from the "Mission Impossible" star in 20o1. The former couple adopted both Isabella and Connor in 1992 and 1995, respectively.

According to reports, Nicole Kidman's desire for a reunion is inspired by the loss of her mother, Janelle, who was unable to spend time with the kids before her death in September.

Nicole Kidman's Mother Was Hurt By The Estrangement

The unexpected death of Kidman's mother, Janelle, is believed to have sparked a desire for reconciliation between the actress and her older children, Isabella and Connor.

Per reports, Kidman doesn't "want to waste any more time" reaching out to her kids for a "proper reconciliation," as she is deeply stuck up on the fact that her mother couldn't be with them all through the years due to her estrangement from them.

"It hurt Janelle that she and husband Antony were estranged from [Isabella and Connor]," a close source told New Idea magazine (per the Daily Mail).

The source added, "They were their first two grandchildren and were once very close. It was a deep regret that they were unable to see her in person before she died."

Nicole Kidman's relationship with her older children deteriorated following her split from Tom Cruise in 2001.

The last time they were seen together in public was in 2007, and she was notably absent from several of their personal milestones, including Isabella's wedding in London in 2015, even though she was living in the same city at the time.

Why Nicole Kidman Is Estranged From Her Older Kids

Previous reports have suggested that Kidman's relationship with her children became strained due to Scientology, the religion their father practices.

While this may have contributed to their estrangement, Kidman has previously expressed that she has no issues with their decision to follow in their father's footsteps and still loves them unconditionally.

"They are adults. They are able to make their own decisions," the actress once told Vanity Fair. They have made choices to be Scientologists, and as a mother, it's my job to love them."

She added at the time, "I am an example of that tolerance, and that's what I believe – that no matter what your child does, the child has love, and the child has to know there is available love, and I'm open here."

The Actress Received A Message From Her Older Kids After Her Mother's Death

Despite the estrangement, Kidman did receive a message from her older kids after her mother's death.

The message from the duo reportedly delighted the actress, who believes that reconciling with them would make her late mother happy.

"The most heartwarming thing has been for Nicole to get a joint message from Bella and Connor, who she's not heard from in a very long time," an insider told Woman's Day.

They added, "It's kind of sad it took such a tragic moment to bring them back into her life, but she knows it would make her mum so happy if her passing brought her estranged grandkids back into the family."

At the time, the insider also shared that Kidman was ready to cut back on her work schedule to ensure she gave the process of reconciling with her kids "its best shot."

Nicole Kidman Announced The Death Of Her Mother At The Venice Film Festival

The news about Kidman's mother's death came from the actress after she was awarded Best Actress for her role in Babygirl on the final day of the Venice Film Festival.

"Today I arrived in Venice to find out shortly after that my beautiful, brave mother has just passed," the Oscar-winning star said in a statement read by director Halina Reijn, per the Daily Mail.

The statement also included a tribute to her mother, who was critical to her career as an award-winning actress.

It read further, "I am in shock, and I have to go to my family, but this award is for her, she shaped me, guided and made me. I am beyond grateful I get to say her name to all of you through Halina, the collision of life and art is heart-breaking, and my heart is broken. We love you all."

The Actress Said She Wakes Up 'Crying' And 'Gasping'

Kidman recently told GQ Magazine that she sometimes wakes up crying, partly because of the loss of her parents and also due to thoughts about mortality.

"Mortality. Connection. Life coming and hitting you," she told the news outlet. "And loss of parents and raising children and marriage and all of the things that go into making you a fully sentient human. I'm in all of those places. So life is, whew. It's definitely a journey."

Having had what GQ described as a "sharp, dramatic breath" while talking, Kidman added that this "hits you as you get older" and "it's a wake up at 3 am crying and gasping kind of thing. If you're in it and not numbing yourself to it. And I'm in it. Fully in it."

The actress told the news outlet that in spite of the setbacks, she pushes through the pain for her children's sake.

"It goes on," she shared. "That natural line of how it's meant to go. The parents, then you, then the children. That's the natural course. So if that happens, that's a blessing."